Kills Houseplants

Day One - The Journey Resumes

So here it is New Year's Day.

This year.....

How many years have I started off with the seemingly innocuous two little words above and then tacked on some preposterous clause.  

...learn the piano.

...travel more.

... have fewer regrets.

...read the Bible everyday.

All wonderful intentions, but nothing more than empty words. Why can't I follow through?

This year I am not going to do it.  This year I feel I must figure it out I pray.

Stay tuned.

What's in a Name?

I came across a name today that made me stop and ponder.

It is a lovely name. A virtuous name. A name sometime associated with hippies - 

Chastity.

But doesn't that name really beg the question about mom?

Letting Go

It's the first day of school again. And while I felt like this day was the point I was working toward all summer (I always have to be working toward something) today I cross the finish line with tears in my eyes. Today my 5th grader and 2nd grader went to school and left me at home. A glimpse of things to come.

What is surprising is how difficult for my already fragile psyche, it was for me to see some of the other children I know.  SG came to this school as a kinder and we have watched the kids in her grade and those above and below grow and become adventurous, little, almost-people.  Now, as I watch some of my dear friends send their children to middle and high school, I know that my turn to do the same will be here in an instant.  As I watched the cars streaming up the hill toward the middle school I thought how these parents, who only recently had strapped their car seats in that same car to carry their brand new baby home from the high school, were now entering the next phase. Like a long line of baby buggies in SUV form the cars went up the hill - loaded with anxious 6th graders and more emotional parents. 

Her time will be here in 365 days. But today I cry and pray. I cry for the passing of time and the blink of an eye that will be my life with them. I pray because I honestly don't know if I will be able to do the things they need me to do most. 

Letting go is tough - especially to the things you want to hold onto the most.

My Future.....

I have been struggling a bit as late.   Call it mid-life crisis, a bit of summer doldrums or just a mild bout of ennui - but I am looking for something.

Thank God for network television! My answer was there waiting for me on every summer Wednesday and Sunday night.

WIPEOUT

It is a family favorite and now my new goal.  

Be a contestant.

Jake thinks this is not a great idea given my collapsed back disc and just general aversion to people looking at me - but I won't be dissuaded.  

If you have ever watched the show you know that they pick one trait about a person and build a character profile around it - this is where you come in.

I need your help in crafting my application.

Here are the guidelines:Wipeout

A CASTING SEARCH IS UNDERWAY TO FIND DYNAMIC MEN & WOMEN TO PARTICIPATE IN A ONCE-IN-A-LIFETIME OPPORTUNITY! $50,000 PRIZE 

World famous reality television producer Endemol USA (that brought you Fear Factor, and Deal or No Deal,) is casting more episodes of the television hit WIPEOUT. In each episode, 24 contestants compete to win $50,000 while conquering the world's largest obstacle course. 

You don't need to be an athlete to participate. 

SEEKING:
• MEN AND WOMEN over 18 years of age.
• Legal residents of the U.S.
• Must be able to swim.
• Fun, strong-willed, outgoing, and have a great sense of humor.


INTERESTED CANDIDATES EMAIL US NOW AT: wipeoutcasting@gmail.com 

Please include your name, address, occupation, contact phone numbers, email addresses, a recent photograph of yourself, and a brief summary of why you're the perfect candidate for this show. 

Louise/Mara - if either of you are interested in joining me - let me know.

I'm Just Saying....

Would you buy a house from EITHER of these women?

A bad hat - maybe

A boat - perhaps

A house - no